15 posts tagged “music”

I AM RIDICULOUSLY HAPPY.
BECAUSE.

He's the vocalist who was suffering from problems with his ears, so he had to take a temporary leave from the band. And you know, how they often say 'temporary' and that turns into 'left the band'. NOT IN HIS CASE. He's back!! And will be performing with キャサリン at their live on the 25th!!

This.
Is by far the best news I've had in a while.

I've been listening to this song on repeat; and for once, it's not because I like the vocalist or because it makes me think of him, grinning from ear to ear. It's not because the song has dirty lyrics, which make me giggle like a ten year old who doesn't know any better. It doesn't bring up any specific treasured memory. It's not complex and an astounding musical masterpiece.

Even though it went so sour, and ended so badly, I miss the few really sweet moments we had.
It's another one of those songs that makes me think of sitting in Nelske's room, doing our translation homework and drinking tea, while it's raining outside. I guess, it just has that atmosphere. Comfortable. I miss that, a lot.
I miss staying up with Annie and Kim, only to realize the next morning I'd fallen asleep somewhere along the way. Or harassing Kim  to get up out of bed.

I miss going every week to Little Hong Kong, with my friends, and ordering 青 or 黄カレー, every time.
I miss waiting outside the live house, feeling anxious and nervous, just because he was there.

It makes me cry.
It makes me think of all the things I regret, and of how maybe, there could have been something.
It makes me wish someone, someone like him, was here right now to hold me, and make everything feel just a little bit better. To make everything a little more 'right'.
It makes me miss Nelske, Kim, Annie, Althea. . . all the people I became so close with and who I can't see every day now. And also the 'friends' I once had who I apparently mean little to nothing to now. I wonder, if that's my fault.

It makes me incredibly homesick.
More than anything, it makes me homesick.

I never even went to the sea while I was there.

I realize, there's no point in regretting the things we did or didn't do. But regardless, I sit here day after day wondering how different, how much better, my life could be. You'd think that this would give me some kind of strength; to get over this ridiculous shyness and do something. But it doesn't. It makes me feel that much more hopeless. Like things will never go the way they're supposed to. That it'll be like this forever.

I also realize, that letting those kind of thoughts get to me does nothing, for anyone. Especially myself.
But they're hard to escape. I want someone to tell me it gets better. That it gets happy again. That someone cares.
That I can make the decision that makes me happy, without making other people upset.

I know, it's a lot to ask.

I guess, I keep listening to this song, because above everything, it makes me feel.
And, sometimes it's still nice to know that you can do that.

I was talking to Ailea yesterday online (you know, for a change of pace), and she shared with me a few photos. One of them being the one posted to your left. Now, we do tend to swap photos, because, I mean seriously, who doesn't like photos of hot guys?

But with this particular photo, I was very surprised, because I'd seen photos of him before but I honestly never remember him being this hot. Who is it? Ling, the singer for the band Silver Ash; who are a Chinese visual rock band. It seems like he's doing other stuff now too. As in, other bands and so on. But his journal being in Chinese. . . means I can't read it. 、ヽ｀(~д~*)、ヽ｀…
Yeah. I'd do him.

Which makes me wonder, do I still have any of their music? I had all of it for a while there, but then with the Great iPod Crash of September 2006, I might have lost and misplaced it all. I could check, but that would require me getting my iPod and plugging it in.
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No, I'm not really that lazy, but I have a splitting headache at the moment. I think it's from caffeine withdraw. Usually, I have a couple (at least 3 - 6) cups of tea a day. Yesterday, I had one. I've had this headache from yesterday, so I thought at first maybe it's because I was hungry. But I ate. Then I thought maybe I was sleepy, but I ended up falling asleep around 7:30pm. . . I woke up at 8:30, then went back to sleep until about 2:00am, woke up again and then back to sleep until about 8:00am. So that's a lot of sleeping, and the headache is STILL here. I even ate breakfast. But, I have my cup of tea in hopes that it will help make this headache go away! p(＃^▽゜)q ファイトッ

Show us some interesting bottles.
Submitted by Red Pen.

When I read this challenge, I thought, what bottles do I have in my room. Then, I thought my perfume bottles would do the trick. I love perfume. I want to collect a lot more, but it's expensive, haha. And of course I don't want ones that I don't think smell good. So, in that photo is two bottles of Tommy Girl; one is almost done. A small and big bottle of Live by Jennifer Lopez, Dolly Girl and Secret Wish by Anna Sui. I don't know which is my favourite, but lately I'm wearing Live a lot because I have so much of it, haha.

I was thinking of this. I don't know why. But lately, every single time I read or hear challenge, I can't help but think o f this sound clip. It's of my barby boys, and they're talking about autumn and what they think of when they think of autumn. So Yamaji is talking about food (naturally) and Hinata says okay Akira, what about you? And Akira wanted to say food too, but then he's like okay, sports. And Kei goes, what sports do you play? And Akira is like, I don't play any. So they all have a grand old time laughing, and Hinata asks him what sport do you want to try your best in? (チャンレジしたい) and Akira decides baseball, so they start going on about that.

But yeah. When I see or hear challenge, I think of that. O_O
Maybe, I've been listening to that too much recently.

I really like hearing his voice though. (＠Д＠;　アセアセ・・・
Am I turning super creepy? Haha.
Hey, at least I can get through the comment without feeling really down, pathetic and without crying. WIN.

Oddly enough, I hardly ever dream about all the band boys that I like.
Except for recently. The other day, I talked about how I dreamt about Akira, which was obviously weird. Appreciated, but weird. And then last night, I had a kind of random dream about Mamo (from Catheline) and Hijiri (obviously from Pashya).
 I love, how I didn't even mention what band Akira was from.

Anyways. Onto this random dream about Mamo and Hijiri (who, I always want to call Hikkun now, thanks to Io, because it's super cute, and he's totally adorable (especially after one and one's friend does a zomg jawdrop when he comes out on stage, Reiya sees, tells Hijiri and after their set Hijiri, in his flowery shirt, spends a good chunk of another band's set standing in the wings, randomly glancing at you)). I feel like we somehow were

all in the same house, and then went out to the car, but I don't remember if that was for sure. But, we were all in a car driving somewhere. Mamo was driving (which is odd, because Kaede seems to drive the boys and, Hijiri always drives the Pashya boys) and I was sitting in the front seat with him, while Hijiri was sitting in the back. However, I had my seatbelt on (honestly, I remember thinking it was annoying) and was sitting backwards in the seat, facing Hijiri so we could talk. Apparently, Mamo couldn't talk and drive at the same time. But I had my hand on Mamo's arm the whole time (random?).

Hijiri was massively talkative and laughing a lot; he was funny! Anyways, we ended up pulling into a parking lot in front of a conbini and Hijiri got out. So I turned around, and I talked to Mamo a little bit and then these HUGE crowd of people in bicycling gear (like the gross spandex and helmets) came into the parking lot too. My high school math teacher was

there, and I told Mamo and then said I didn't want to see him so I avoided looking in his direction (out the car window) so that he didn't come over and talk to me (because for some reason, I was convinced he would).

So we decide that we should drive away, because of all the people. Needless to say, we forgot Hijiri. So I start yelling at Mamo, because we're at the opposite end of the parking lot (which, was a far way) and Hijiri has been hoisted onto the shoulders of the bicycling people. We drive back over to the crowd, meanwhile Mamo is apologizing like crazy because he thought Hijiri was getting out at the conbini (what?). We get Hijiri back into the car, he yells at Mamo who's screaming how sorry he is, and....

I wake up. 、ヽ｀(~д~*)、ヽ｀…
Why can't I ever have any good dreams?
I mean come on, two hot guys, and I get NOTHING?

Well, here's hoping something good happens tonight. <(^_~)ゝ~~

I got my new student today!
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I really make it sound like I'm actually getting something; like a prize or a puppy. (^_^;)
Anyways, she's at 4:30 and her name is Sara. That's all I knew about her before she arrived. I got to work at 4:00, because I wasn't sure if I had a student at 4:00 this week and if I have a new student at 4:30, it's good to be early so that I can be ready when they come.

They came at about ten after, and it turns out she's five. FIVE. How cute is that!? And she JUST turned five on the 1st of the month. She's in school, but in Montessori school at the moment. Her dad said she'd be starting kindergarten next September.

So usually, young kids, especially girls, are shy when they come to piano lessons for the first time. I mean, it's a whole new environment and you're being taught by this person you've never met before, not to mention there's no one else in your class. But Sara, is hilarious! She's SO friendly and really talkative but she also is amazing at sitting there and listening. I have NO idea how much she'll remember by next week, but at least she's being introduced to it and if we do one song per week, that should be fine.

We did a lot today in her first lesson, so now I'm worried it was too much. But, we'll see what happens next week and then I can adjust accordingly. We started by finding Middle C, then found all the groups of two black keys, and all the groups of three black keys. Then we learned where C, D, E, F and B are on the keyboard. And named them after animals. I let her choose the animals, because that makes more sense, so we have Cat, Dog, Elephant, Fish and Butterfly.

Anyways, I'm getting carried away describing that all. At one point I had to run out to the desk and grab my pencil, because I left it there by accident and she comes out of the room behind me and goes, "Can I ask you something?" So of course I say sure, and she goes, "Well, I really have to go the washroom!" Haha. So I took her, and she was telling me about how when she sits for a long time, she always has to go to the washroom and how about the washroom at school has a kitchen in it. [/random].

She also said to me, "When we're done, can I do things my way?" Okay so I wasn't 100% sure what that meant, but I figured of course that she just wanted to play the song by herself. Well, I explained what we did to her dad and then she wanted to go back in and try things 'her' way, so we went to the piano, and she tried running her hands up the keys. You know, like they do in songs to make it sound all spiffy? If you've ever tried to do it, it's actually VERY hard, because your hands get stuck, as did hers. She only made it a couple of keys. So, I told her to cover her hand with her sleeve, and try again. That worked and she was happy, haha.

I'm really glad to have a new student. And I'm really glad with the progress Chayan and Whitney are making. Chayan, I need to find something else for. Like another new book so he doesn't get bored. We're almost done the book we're in now, and I want to get him a book with songs he might actually know; like movie songs and stuff. Whitney, next week will complete the last song in the Preliminary book. She'll have done the whole Preliminary grade, which is two books and a Christmas book in four months. That's pretty damn good. And, she's excited to play scales. O_O

Now, Ms. Alisha, is such a sweet and funny girl. But, she doesn't practice enough. And, when she does practice she doesn't use the books, so she doesn't look at the music. It's really amazing how fast she memorizes things, but at the same time half the time she's memorizing it wrong. In lessons, I cover her hands with a book so she's forced to read the music, but I can't do that at her house. Obviously. But we did a new song today, hands separately; it's easy and it went well. I wanted to give her something new so she has something and so she doesn't get frustrated with the other songs that she has to work on. I thought if we at least did something new and easier, then at least she could go home and look forward to practicing something because she could see that she could do it.

Does that make ANY sense?

I know I talk a lot about my kids. But I really enjoy teaching piano. I wish I had more students, but I'm also really happy with the few I have now. ^^

ALSO.
This Saturday, I'll be teaching the Japanese class! Hiroko gave me a list of things to go over, (including time and 挨拶) so I'm trying to think of some games and stuff we can do so that the kids can use some of their energy and have some fun. I was thinking for 挨拶, after we go over them all we can play handshake murder. Because you have to walk around and greet someone so it gives everyone a chance to practice without feeling singled out.

Anyone have any idea for time games? Or SOME kind of game-ish thing that I could incorporate time into?
I also don't know if I should do a worksheet for homework or not. . .

On a closing note,
I think that I think I'm closer to a lot of people than I really am.
You know, that kid who was always around and they thought you were like ZOMG BFF but you really weren't?
Yeah.
I think I'm kind of like that sometimes with some people.
I guess, because I want to be close to them. Or something.
Maybe I'm over-thinking again.

I'm damn tired.
But instead of being intelligent, and going to sleep I'm going post COMPLETELY useless crap here. ♡
Okay, so.
Today, I had a seminar at 8:00am, over in East Academic (which are those buildings across the street, near the Timmes). Um, that's retarded. It's not like they couldn't have found a classroom ON CAMPUS that would have been empty at 8:00 on a Friday. Seriously.
My seminar is way small, and NO one wants 8:00am, so we're signing a petition to get the day and room changed. If we get it, it'll be Wednesday from 1 - 2, which is so much better. Especially seeing as I'm not a morning person. Which of course is not because I stay up to ridiculous hours in the night doing absolutely nothing (mixi).

そういえば、nothing yet. "(/へ＼*)"))ｳｩ､ﾋｯｸ
Hey, but I've spent a good chunk of today translating マモ [Mamo] from キャサリン [Catheline]'s journal entries. He has 101, and I've done about forty-three now. ALMOST HALF WAY. But you know, after you translate stuff for a while, you start to get pretty loopy.

I have a friend request on mixi, but I'm seriously too tired right now to form a coherent Japanese sentence, so that's not happening. And I still have a ton of messages to reply to, which I WILL get to. Better late then never, right? 、ヽ｀アセ(;~▼~;)アセ、ヽ｀ OMG. Maybe it's like karma, and he won't send me anything until I reply to the ones I haven't replied to yet.
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I need to stop dwelling on this.
Speaking of dwelling,* I was thinking of writing to 幸祐 [Kousuke]. I just listened to Escape, which was on the Vision CD (compilation) and it's seriously hot. Well, not hot. I don't know how else to say it, I want to say 熱い, hahahaha. Which is hot, but I don't know. You know what I mean. Well, maybe you don't. But I know what I mean. At least one of us does. Anyways, I like it; his voice is getting better and better. Damnit. This is turning into that little thing I have about someone else. Or maybe more than just one other person. . .

○ナ○
○○サ○
か○○
等②

Yes.
I'm OMG SUPER SECRETIVE.
Almost as good as Ichigo. WHO, is changing his stage name. O_O But last time I checked, he hadn't said to what yet. I can't imagine him as anything else. Although I guess originally I couldn't imagine ミヤミチ　as 朋. . . but now I like 朋 better because I'm used to it and as FUN as ミヤミチ is to say, 朋 is far more 便利. I'm only putting that because I don't know how to spell the English equivalent at the moment (despite numerous tries, my thing kept telling me it was spelt wrong, so I decided to move on).

Tomorrow, er, today, from 9:30 ～ 12:00 I'll be at Japanese school, meeting the kids and helping out Hiroko-sensei, who I'm really exited to meet, she seems so sweet! I'm kind of nervous to take over the class in March, but I'm sure I can do it; especially if I start helping out now, then I'll know the kids. And now I'm teaching the white "Canadian" kids, so it's easier.

そういえば、I GET A NEW KID NEXT THURSDAY.
I'm so excited! But I don't know anything about her yet, other than her name is Sara.
And she's at 4:30, before Mr. Chayan.

There was something else I was thinking earlier that I thought I should write about in here, but now I can't remember what it was, unless it was the contents of the conversation I had with Nels earlier today, which tied into the question of the day, but now I realize, it's probably not a good thing to start posting about.
Nels, what did you say that killed me?

Damnit.
I'm too tired.

お(メ▼O▼)や(メ▼◇▼)す(メ▼。▼)み(メ▼皿▼)┳*--バキューン!!
. . . isn't that last one totally creepy?

* I had to put this here, because it made me laugh, I was re-reading this for any retarded mistakes, and I had "swelling" instead of dwelling. I realize very few people will get how amusing this is, but due to subject matter of most my conversations today, I think it's suitable.

The lyrics, are no where to be found, except from this TINY photo of the CD cover on their website. So, with the help of Ailea, we got the lyrics to the song from listening and trying to make out the kanji on the tiny tiny photo.

I'm so going to learn these lyrics so I can sing along with him.
Have I mentioned lately, that 幸祐 [Kousuke], the singer for ギャックメン [Gyackmen] is gorgeous?
Because he is. Like. Wow.

I have also listened to this song 52 times now. It's the most listened song on my iPod right now.
I'm sorry my darling, you're songs are always first, but this one just kills me. T_T

I know I'm into spamming my journal today with useless crap about boys.
But I DON'T CARE. It's my journal, and if I want to spam about boys, I will. This post, I bring you another terribly sexy part of a song, by another very good looking guy; てんてん [Tenten] who broke my heart by leaving KuRt, but he should really do whatever makes him happy. ^^

So I don't usually think the whole dirty talk thing is hot or anything, but if てんてん [Tenten] does it. . .

And then I always flash back to the Tokyo live, where he was pretending like the mic, was his penis, and he was getting off on stage (but not really). Man. That never gets old. Like, ever. Nels, I know you thought it was too much, but no. Haha. I'm seriously glad we went that night and that they were the secret guest, especially now that they fell apart. T_T

Anyways, this is the first little bit of SPEED STAR. I don't know why it's so hot, but it is.

On September 3rd of this past year, Nels and I were in Japan hanging out.
Now, because I'm either an addict or a moron, I decided it would be a BRILLIANT idea to go to a live two days after I got there, nevermind the fact I was more jetlagged than I wanted to admit, and kind of sick.

However, this live was totally worth it. It was really low-key, even if Nagoya HOLIDAY was a PAIN IN THE ASS to find. -_-' Anyways, the point is, we went to a live on the third. It was a テディ [Teddy] event, so the first 100 people (there weren't even that many there) got a free テディ [Teddy] mirror. We reserved with ギャックメン [Gyackmen] and the reason was NOT because I think 幸祐 [Kousuke] is gorgeous. Not. At. All.

That night, they played this song. I had no idea what it was, because I'd never heard it before. Turns out, they only played it that one night (we saw them twice more after that) and I wanted them to play it again, because it's an amazing song. I, being the immature one that I am, burst out into a fit of giggles half way through and had a really hard time controlling myself. Nelske, didn't get at a first and gave me the, 'wtf is wrong with you now?' look, until I said to her, 'dude, LISTEN'. In which case, she also started giggling.

I looked for it everywhere, but alas, it hadn't been released. THEN on their website, they posted that they were giving it out at their oneman, which we couldn't go to, because we had to go home. Figures. T_T We both really wanted to go to that, and to the instore. But life likes to kick you in the pants.

Finally, I got it. A very sweet girl sent it to me online, I don't know how she got it, because it wasn't even for sale anywhere, but I'm glad she did, because I'm SO glad to have it. I just uploaded the chorus, as it is by far the best part of the song. By best, I mean my favourite.

幸祐 [Kousuke] though, is seriously gorgeous. Like. Seriously.
I like ダイ [Dai] too; I have his pick. <3

I... need a boyfriend or a new hobby. 、ヽ｀アセ(;~▼~;)アセ、ヽ｀